my cup runneth over

2010-02-24T23:37:00.005+08:00

i have mooooooved. Please RELINK - http://mycuprunnethover.tumblr.com/

thank you. (:

2009-12-31T00:34:00.010+08:00

The Universal Presence is a fact. God is here. Wherever we are, God is here. There is no place, there can be no place where He is not. Ten million people standing at as many points in space and separated by incomprehensible distances can each one say with equal truth, God is here. No point is nearer to God than any other point. It is exactly as near to God from any place as it is from any other place. No one is in mere distance any further from or any nearer to God than any other person.

-from "The Pursuit of God" by A.W Tozer

I like it -- God is here.

That's a fact. I set out from home today in search of the perfect place to spend some time with God. Only to return 3 hours later to learn that there is no perfect place. God is here. and since God is at every place, every place is the perfect place to spend time with God. even if it means no nice beaches with crashing waves and the setting sun, but simply four concrete walls with a little window -- God is here

The Universal Presence

2009-12-31T00:06:00.008+08:00

The Universal Presence is a fact. God is here. Wherever we are, God is here. There is no place, there can be no place where He is not. Ten million people standing at as many points in space and separated by incomprehensible distances can each one say with equal truth, God is here. No point is nearer to God than any other point. It is exactly as near to God from any place as it is from any other place. No one is in mere distance any further from or any nearer to God than any other person.

-from "The Pursuit of God" by A.W Tozer

I like it -- God is here. That's a fact.

I set out from home today in search of the perfect place to spend some time with God. Only to return 3 hours later to learn that there is no perfect place. God is here and since God is at every place, every place is the perfect place to spend time with God. Even if it means no nice beaches with crashing waves and the setting sun, but simply four concrete walls with a little window -- God is here.

Richer than you think!

2009-12-15T00:03:00.008+08:00

3 Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who hath blessed us with all spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ: 4 According as he hath chosen us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and without blame before him in love: 5 Having predestinated us unto the adoption of children by Jesus Christ to himself, according to the good pleasure of his will, 6 To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved. 7 In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace; 8 Wherein he hath abounded toward us in all wisdom and prudence; 9 Having made known unto us the mystery of his will, according to his good pleasure which he hath purposed in himself: 10 That in the dispensation of the fulness of times he might gather together in one all things in Christ, both which are in heaven, and which are on earth; even in him: 11 In whom also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestinated according to the purpose of him who worketh all things after the counsel of his own will: 12 That we should be to the praise of his glory, who first trusted in Christ. 13 In whom ye also trusted, after that ye heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation: in whom also after that ye believed, ye were sealed with that Holy Spirit of promise, 14 Which is the earnest of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, unto the praise of his glory. Eph 1:3-14 (KJV)

___Have you ever felt you weren't rich enough? Think no further! The Bible says that we are blessed with all spiritual blessings! Do you know how rich you are in Christ today? We have in our Spiritual Bank Account:- all spiritual blessing in the heavenly places (v3) - we are chosen before the foundation of the world (v4) - we are adopted as God's children through Jesus Christ (v5) - we are accepted in the Beloved (v6) - we have redemption through His blood & forgiveness of sins (v7) - we can know His Will (v9) - in Christ we have obtained an inheritance (v11) - we are sealed with the Holy Spirit (v13)
---Why should we be defeated when we have all we need to live this Christian lifeWhy should we feel rejected when we have been chosen before the world was createdWhy should we feel all alone when we are adopted through ChristWhy should we feel dejected when we are accepted in the Beloved?Why should we feel guilty when we can receive forgiveness of sins?Why should we be confused when we can know God's will? [Ephesians 5:17]
How then can all these riches be accessed?Simply -- by grace, through faith. FAITH.
without faith, it is impossible to please Him.
//True riches come from God by His grace, for His glory. :D

You know better than i

2009-11-04T13:41:00.002+08:00

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here

So I put up a fight
And told you how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through

I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in you

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For you know better than I

I saw one cloud and thought it was a sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was you who taught that bird to fly
If I let you reach me will you teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers you supply
You know better than I

Yes Lord, I've let go the need to know why for You know better than i.

Soaring--

2009-10-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

These past two days have not passed without me shedding tears.

It's painful, but I know this time of testing is needful.

As I was sitting outside at the patio this morning, just talking to God about all that's happening I saw a sight that really encouraged my heart. As I looked up to the sky overhead, to my delight, I saw an eagle. The eagle was flapping its wings really hard as it tried to rise up in the sky. It continued flapping its wings for some time till it reached a point where it started to soar upwards. It was soaring in circles, upwards. As I beheld this scene, I could see myself there.

Sometimes in our life, it seems like we are in a trying period. But during those times, we need to put in the hardwork and persevere in flapping our wings because after the night comes the break of dawn. There will be light.

Other times in our lives when it seems that we are going in circles and always having to deal with the same problem, remember, yes, though you may be going in circles, you are still soaring higher and higher into the sky.

The Lord's dealing with me, I know it. Lord, please continue Your work in me till You please. Take me. I will follow Thee my Saviour, wherever the pathway may go.

I shall never be moved?

2009-10-06T14:38:00.003+08:00

And in my prosperity I said, I shall never be moved. Lord, by thy favour thou hast made my mountain to stand strong...

Psalms 30:6-7a

Doesn't that sound familiar? "I shall never be moved." Maybe it is when life seems to be going well and everything is going our way that we secretly think in our heart "I shall never be moved" or maybe when we're doing well spiritually that we think to ourselves "I shall never be moved"

Just as the Psalmist David catches himself in the "I shall never be moved" trap, he acknowledges whom it is that keeps us standing. It is the LORD Himself. It is the Lord and by His favour that we remain standing.

So the next time we are tempted to think that we have arrived and shall never be moved, remember - that it is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.

Thank You, Lord. (:

It is of the Lord'S mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. 23 They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. 24 The Lord is my portion, saith my soul; therefore will I hope in him. 25 The Lord is good unto them that wait for him, to the soul that seeketh him. 26 It is good that a man should both hope and quietly wait for the salvation of the Lord. 27 It is good for a man that he bear the yoke in his youth.

Lam 3:22-27 (KJV)

Lord, be my portion.

He's thinking of you

2009-10-04T21:21:00.002+08:00

How precious also are thy thoughts unto me, O God! how great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they are more in number than the sand: when I awake, I am still with thee.

Psalms 139:17-18

Our family made a great discovery today. We found my late grandpa's diary. If you don't know my grandpa yet, let me introduce him to you. He's a man I've grown to respect. Jack of all trades, my grandpa built some terrace houses in S'pore, collected antiques as a hobby, could draw portraits and cook really well. I miss him ever since he passed on 5 years ago when I was 12.

Grandpa is a very detailed man. I held his diary with such anticipation because there was so much more I always wanted to know about him but never got the chance to. As I read his one line diary entries like "Gave up smoking - 15 - 09 - 1980", it was interesting to see the names in his dairy. He even took note of the date my sis entered uni - 10 - 08 - 03. So I was curious to see if my name would be found in my grandpa's diary. And I found it once! "Betty blessed with a daughter - Melody. 10.30am -24 - 05 - 92" (: I was so happy to find my name there.

Then I was thinking about it. My name was only mentioned in my grandpa's diary once, but it's comforting to know that God's thoughts toward me and about me are countless like the sand on the shore. I am precious to God and He's thinking about me and has the best in mind for my life; I can trust Him.

Yes Lord, I'll trust You, with my life. I'll wait.

2009-08-21T14:55:00.005+08:00

I'm sorry if this post may sound abit strong, but my heart is deeply stirred and challenged.

Here goes...

My God is mighty to save and I have witnessed that first hand in the land of Philippines.
In the last five weeks, over 43 000 people have heard the good news and more than half have made professions. I do hope I can share more about what God has shown and taught me there in future posts. But my question is, "Do we today, know this same God personally? The God who performed miracles? The God who answered prayers so marvellously?"

Why? Why can't we see the same things which happen in the Philippines happen here too in Singapore as well? The problem surely does not lie with God; the ball is in our court.

What is holding God back from opening His floodgates of revival and blessing here in our homeland?

I believe the answer lies in faith.

"For without faith, it is impossible to please Him"

It is in simply taking small steps of faith that we will come to know our God in a more personal and experiencial manner.

You want to see miracles?

You want to know God for who He truly is?

then, what are you waiting for?

take a step out of the boat!

Hey Christians (myself included),

are we simply contented to warm our seats every Sunday?

are we satisified because we belong to a church that has mission work in 5 different countries?

What are we doing about our country? our homeland? Singapore?

But so we say, "oh, their hearts are so hardened. They don't need God."

Wait a minute, Jesus died for them on the cross too.

God loves them so much and He wants to save them.

But He needs us to cooperate with Him and to be His mouthpiece.

Enough is enough.

Wake up! Wake up mel.

By faith, take a step out of the boat, keeping your eyes on Jesus.

Enough of waiting for others to start an outreach here, an outreach there.

You see the need, what are you going to do about it? What am i going to do about it?

Talk is cheap. Let's take action now, by the grace of God.

I want to take this step, now what?

Pray and seek the Lord's mind.

Ask Him, Lord, how would you like me to reach out to my family, to my unsaved friends around me?

"But we have the mind of Christ." (1 Cor 2:16)

Don't pray till the rapture, after praying, take action!

The Lord has given us many avenues to reach our generation. Let's be creative, dream big!

-SportLight

-Music

-Student Hostels

-An open door already in YMCA

-1 room flats in Jalan Kukoh (Rem, the poor are rich in faith!)

-Going to playground to share with helpers and mums the gospel.

The Bible says: "Ask, and it will be given you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you." Matt 7:7

How will we know if the door is open if we do not knock?

Let's start knocking. ;)

It always starts with one - one who decides to go all the way with God.

Lord, help.

2009-07-27T17:35:00.002+08:00

Greetings from the Philippines! (:

It's so good to be able to use the com again eh?
this is my first time ever since i arrived in Philippines.

God has been so so good.
Today and tmr is our day of rest, Wed we start again.
We're in the island of Cebu now.
Preached the gospel to 24 000 students so far and 17 000 made decisions to trust the Lord. Praise God!

The Lord too has been teaching me many lessons on ministry, calling, spiritual gifts, spiritual battle, evangelism and discipleship. I hope to be able to share em here when i get back.

We arrive back home on 17 Aug.

Thanks for all you who have been praying. (:
We really need ur prayers.
Pls keep Yu Fei in prayer too, as he's down with fever.

Stay strong in the Lord and God bless! :D

Are You Easily Edified?

2009-07-02T00:30:00.005+08:00

June 30th, 2009

I don’t know about you, but I sometimes find myself suffering from a sense of over-familiarity with God and the gospel. Reading my Bible doesn’t excite me. Listening to sermons becomes routine. Even worship feels common and mundane. At times like these I crave something new and compelling to jolt me out of my spiritual rut. I figure that if I only had a better devotional book, a more powerful preacher, or a worship band with slightly more musical gifting, then my heart would become responsive again. Sin makes us stupid like that.

Of course, I’m not denying that there are better devotional book or more powerful preachers. We should read great books, not mediocre books. We should look for churches where God’s Word and the gospel are faithfully preached. But I often find myself dissatisfied with truths — however poorly presented — that should thrill me.

“A mature Christian is easily edified.”

Two weeks ago I stumbled across that statement by Dr. Harold Best — and it hit too close to home. Easily edified? That doesn’t sound like the Brett Harris I know. To borrow from friend and blogger, Justin Taylor, too often an accurate assessment of my life would reveal that I am easily annoyed, easily irritated, easily impatient, easily hurt, easily angered, easily distracted, easily arrogant, etc. Justin concludes:

Wouldn’t it be great if those who knew us best could honestly say, “It is so easy to edify him. It doesn’t take much. It doesn’t need to be the best sermon ever preached or the most excellent song ever composed or the most powerful book ever written or the most theologically eloquent statement ever uttered. Just the simplest truth was enough to refresh his heart in Christ.”

Not a bad way to pray — for ourselves and for others.

Over the past few months God has been working in my heart to restore a sense of awe and amazement — to ignite the idle sticks of my heart into a roaring blaze — but I am still God’s work in progress. Pray for me, as I pray for all of you, that we would grow together into men and women after God’s own heart.

“In the way of your testimonies I delight as much as in all riches. I will meditate on your precepts and fix my eyes on your ways. I will delight in your statutes; I will not forget your word. I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart!” — Psalm 119:14-16, 32

Heavenly Father, enlarge our hearts we pray!

-The above post is by Brett Harris, taken from the blog - http://www.therebelution.com/blog/

I came across this website - www.therebelution.com when i was reading the book "Do Hard Things". I have been blessed many times by the posts in the blog and i pray it will be a blessing to you to. I do desire to share more things about this "Do Hard Things" book that I have read and will be reading again, but maybe another time soon.

This post is just so close to my heart, cos recently, my heart just seems so cold to the things of God. Lord, please revive my heart.

Another interesting website to check out, esp for all teen girls - http://www.therebelution.com/modestysurvey/browse

This website has helped me alot esp with regards to modesty cos modesty is a topic that is not commonly addressed. Many times, its quite awkard to go up to a guy to talk to him about modesty. What he thinks is modest or not and what kind of dressing or posture or attitude or whatever may be a stumbling block to him. I know guys are visual persons and lust is a very real thing they struggle with.

As Christian girls, we should be careful not to cause our brothers in Christ to stumble or sin unnecessarily especially if it has to do with our dressing. Of course, modesty has more to do than the dressing. It's also about the heart. Well, i think that's enough about modesty for now, hmm...i think that's quite an interesting topic and maybe we can do more discussion about that topic in the future. ;)

btw, what's found on the modesty survey website are just views and commements combined from guys all over the world. take it for how much you deem it worth. Let us pray and ask the Lord to teach us and lead us in this area of modesty and staying pure for Christ. :)

Praise You in this storm (:

2009-06-21T00:07:00.004+08:00

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

Chorus:
I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The maker of heaven and earth

would it be okay to tell you that i'm not alright? that i'm actucally not doing too well now?
sure it would be. but sometimes in Christianity today, its hard to just be yourself.
its hard to show that u're actually not doing so well, when everyone around you seems to be fine perpetually. well, God help us. God help us to be who we really are. Thank God for good times, thank God for bad ones too.

in this valley,
i know God wants to strengthen my spiritual muscles.
i do not know how long this will take,
but i trust He knows best
and i am willing to stay in this valley till He is done with me

my heart is so hard
my heart is so proud
Lord, please please take my heart and break it.
make it soft, mouldable by You.
clothe me with humility.
i humble myself before You,
You are God.

we need more Christians that will stop being happy plastic people,
with shiny plastic steeples and walls around our weakness
and smiles to hide our pain.
Starting with - me. Get real, mel.

Lord, help me to be real. I thank You for mountaintop experiences, for valley experiences. I lift mine eyes to You, for You are my help. i will praise You in this storm.

lessons from the tumbleweed

2009-06-17T15:43:00.010+08:00

i'm studying biology today for my homeschooling and i gleamed a spiritual lesson as i went though my lesson.

i'm on the topic of "Flowers, Fruits and Seeds" and from Fruits and Seeds Disposal, i quote:

"When the seeds of the tumbleweed, a plant of the Western plains, are ready to be dispersed, the entire plant withers and appears to die. When the wind blows, the plant stem breaks and the plant rolls across the plains, scattering seeds as it goes."

Isn't it interesting how the tumbleweed disperses itself?

I picked up a few learning points from the paragraph above.

the entire plant withers and appears to die

How often we Christians "appear to die". Appear to die to our flesh and live in the Spirit. Sometimes we think we have died to self when we have not, sometimes i think i may have surrendered all when i'm still secretly holding on to some dear thing. then when do we truly die?

the plant stem breaks

when the breaking comes and we choose to be broken before our Lord. when the walls are down and the roof off. Nothing between my soul and the Saviour and nothing to hide or keep as a secret from people around. after brokeness then what?

scattering seeds as it goes
after the breaking there is life again.

it is brokeness before revival.

may we be found broken before the Lord, allowing the Lord to have His way in our lives everyday.

2009-06-16T23:11:00.003+08:00

it's so good to blog again. (:

I've actucally got lots to say and share about my family holiday to the Philippines and the church camp in Melaka. i'll be doing that in my subsequent posts, so stay tuned!

For now, i've got a new addition to the blog, its the book of the week and book in the pipline colum at the left hand side below the tagboard. i've long had the desire to read books, and so to encourage myself to read, i've decided to read one book a week [of course, also looking at the number of pages ;) ] and i'll do a lil review everytime i finish the book to share abit about the gist of it and lessons learnt. ;)

so far in the "Your Passport to Heaven" book, i've cleared a misconception i've had since young and that is that we'll be in Heaven forever. when i say Heaven, i mean, i think of this cloudy place where everything is white, the streets - gold...

This is what Randy Alcorn said and i quote "What we usually think of when we hear the word Heaven is the present Heaven, or the intermediate Heaven. If we're Christians, that's where we go when we die. It's the place where we'll live until our bodily resurrection. Our Christian loved ones who've died are now in the present, intermediate Heaven. But that's not the place where we'll live forever. Our eternal home, where God will come down to dwell among His people, is called the New Earth (Revelation 21:1-3)."

To leave you with a quote which i found on PC's blog-a big mission : "How could I spend the best years of my life in living for the honours of this world, when thousands of souls are perishing every day?" CT Studd

2009-06-03T07:07:00.001+08:00

“Wilt thou not revive us again: that thy people may rejoice in thee?” Psalm 85:6

"When the church is prosperous, she never has revival. It’s when she's poor. Prayer is the language of the poor. 'Bow down Thine ear and hear me for I am poor and needy.' The self satisfied don’t need to pray. The self sufficient don’t want to pray. The self righteous cannot pray. But, the man who realises He needs something outside of what is human at all, he wants to bathe his soul in prayer…The weakest, weakest meeting in almost any church without exception is the prayer meeting. And when we’re not strong in prayer, we’re saying to God, we can manage. Cos we should pray if we have an invasion, we should pray if we have a famine, we have a great utility God…You need to maintain your prayer life in order to pray. No, not so. Not so. You need to maintain your Christian Life in order to pray…The church has to rediscover two things:
1. The Majesty and the Holiness of God
2. The sinfulness of sin
Prayer is not the easiest thing in the world. Prayer is the hardest thing in the world. Prayer is the most demanding thing in the world! ‘All earthly things will fade away but prayer grasps eternity’ so said Mongummary…if you claim to be filled with the Holy Spirit, the things that grieve the Spirit will grieve you…We’re heading for judgment faster than you could ever think, unless there’s a divine intervention…We sure need a heaven born, earth shaking, hell terrifying revival. And it only comes through brokenness…” -- Leonard Ravenhill

*extract taken from his sermon “Weeping between the Porch and the Altar”

Oh, may God break us.
May we rediscover the Majesty and Holiness of God and the sinfulness of our sin.
Revive us again.

2009-05-30T07:07:00.000+08:00

thank God for the tue Bible Study that recently passed. Matthew 9:35-38

The King's Service
The King's Sympathy
The King's Strategy

learning about how Jesus went to the cities and villages surrounding Galilee truly challenged me. it is estimated a total of about 200 cities and villages there were surrounding Galilee. and Jesus went to each one of them, on foot. no car, no aeroplane, no bus. walk, walk, walk.

"And he said unto them, Go ye into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature. " Mark 16:15

i heard this song some time ago, it still sticks with me -- the picture is painted so clear.
I do not want to be found having the blood of my loved ones and friends to be upon me.
what am i waiting for? what are you waiting for?

To Every Creature

The blood of men and nations is upon us,
As the church remains distracted from the call.
The Saviour’s great commission still unheeded,
To take His Word of redemption unto all.

To every creature I’ll preach the gospel,
In season out of season I would faithful be
This was our Saviour’s consuming passion
In every hour, it’s still God’s power,
Unto salvation for the world,
Unto all who will believe.

Oh, how then shall they hear without a preacher,
That our gracious Lord is ready to forgive?
To us it’s been committed as His stewards,
That light to shine every moment that we live!

"And Jesus went throughout all the cities and villages, teaching in their synagogues and proclaiming the gospel of the kingdom and healing every disease and every affliction. When he saw the crowds, he had compassion for them, because they were harassed and helpless, like sheep without a shepherd. Then he said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few; therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest." Matthew 9:35-38

2009-05-29T00:07:00.003+08:00

Thank God for a great time going door to door tonight with Jeremy, asking parents if they would like to allow their kids to come for Children's Camp.
Let's pray for one family in particular. Mr Kalek(i think that's how you spell it) despite hearing that this camp is organised by a church and there will be preaching, is still quite keen on sending his two muslim daughters to camp. Let's pray for God to keep this door open.
I thank God for challenging my faith, my mindset about how some people groups are 'harder' then other people groups. nonsance! With God all things are possible! Amen? amen!

Had a great time of fellowship with Jeremy along the way. He shared this quote on faith which he read from a book, "The greatness of your faith is shown in proportion to how long you can wait for the fulfillment of a promise." amazing quote! faith is not measured by result, but by faithfulness. by waiting on God in quiet confidence and trust that He will be faithful to what He said.

Hmm, before I met up with Jeremy, i was supposed to meet Glenda at 5 at Dover MRT. Waiting there, the Lord just gave me His eyes to the people. the multitudes, as sheep having no shepherd. it was the time of the day that all the students from SP finished sch and were gng home. oh how they walked by, group after group, pair after pair all engaged in their own conversations, obvlious to their eternal destiny. I wished i could stop them, grab all of them, bring them to a room and share the Gospel with them, tell them that God loves them and has a plan for them. oh, the masses. so many. and that is only one poly. one school.

"How then shall they call on him in whom they have not believed? and how shall they believe in him of whom they have not heard? and how shall they hear without a preacher?And how shall they preach, except they be sent? as it is written, How beautiful are the feet of them that preach the gospel of peace, and bring glad tidings of good things!" Romans 10:14-15

Oh may the Lord of the Harvest Thrust forth His labourers! Thrust us forth, Lord.

Critical thinking. this is something i needa develop. Having grew up in a society and environment where everything has been thought through for me, my mind has become so lazy to think, to analyse. Of course, not the extreme of being overly critical, but just -i would say- evaluation. Why do we do what we do? is it cos we've been doing it all along? or what can we learn from things happening around us? The world is our classroom and the Holy Spirit is our teacher.

So, the session tonight. How can we improve? Why Bishan? What sort of blocks should we target? How do we approach the parents, what is the best way? Hmm.. is going door to door the best way to reach the children? We need to think, we needa evaluate. Not just do something and then say - okay, i've done my best. is this really my best? i'm not just saying this Children's camp going out on the street thingy. but this applies to anything and everything. Lord, help.

2009-05-27T21:27:00.003+08:00

yummy! (: i just shared 3 boxes of durian with my dad. ahhh.. durian, been a long time since i had you. okay, but that's not what i'm here to post abt. i've been wanting to post since Sunday but haven't got the time till now.

wow. imagine. i'm all of 17 now. seventeen.
my birthday, which just past, was a sweet one. (: no sabos! haha. yay! anyway, i don't really participate in otrs sabos so..

this birthday that just past was a different one. differently in,

firstly, it was celebrated over 4 days!? hahah. the longest ever.
thurs night, my family together with my grandma had chilli and pepper crab at my house. we celebrated in advance cos my mum would be flying on Sat and hence, would not be ard for my bdae. i killed two crabs! my grandma helped me to hold them down though. it was chilly, i didn't quite like killing those poor crabs.
fri morn at Bible Sch coffee talk, had 3 cakes. haha. all thanks to..Ray! (: but i appreciate it.
sat at Vibe, Yvonne and some runners went to island creamy to get a tub of reverso with relightable candles to celebrate Guo Pei and my bdae. we had a fun time blowing out the candles.
sun, went out in the aftrn with my da ges and da jies to eat chicken rice at chinatown. ministry to one of Ian's armymates. then we had desert somewhere in the same vicinity.
had my favourite cake at ccwo when Dawn and Ray bought my favourite cheesecake from Pine's Bakery. haha. (: and at my voiddeck had yet another two slices of cake from Jia Hao. so - a grand total of 6 cakes this bdae!

it sure was a really sweet bdae.

secondly, i had a different mindset approaching my bdae. in the past, what happened on my bdae meant alot to me. not saying that it doesn't now, but in a different sense. after e exchange life course, i saw that i needn't seek my identity in anything apart from Christ, since I am already accepted in Him! (: last time, i saw my 'self-worth' in a sense, from how many people wished me happy birthday, how many smses, how many cards, how many presents. but this birthday, my self worth was not found in the wishes, or presents or cards. i know i am accepted in Christ. those wishes and presents were only affirmations that i had brothers and sisters in Christ who loved me, friends who remembered. talking about identity and self-worth, i also used to find that alot in running. I remember how i used to beat myself up over doing really badly for a race. it was as though how i performed in my races determined who i was. it is no more the case now, i would gladly say. I know i am accepted in Christ, and that is enough.
i'm not down playing presents or birthday wishes -
in fact, i'd like to thank all for making my birthday so so special.
thanks for the smses.
thanks for the facebook wishes.
thanks for the hugs.
thanks for the handshakes.
thanks for the green mushroom and dolphin bookmark.
thanks for the yummy chewy junior cream puffs.
thanks for the brown shawl and the cool card that emits music.
thanks for the rose and the card.
thanks for the cookies, the card, the ice cream, the friends, the vibe.
thanks for the sweet dress.
thanks for the watch that i would have never ever dreamed of owning. (:
thanks for the thought, the my melody, the lunch.
thanks for the gebera, the amt of work for the photo frame, the kitkat.
thanks for the book.
thanks for the lovely Christian coasters.
thanks for the shirt.
thanks. :D
really, thanks. You've showered me with love. God's love.

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oh, one thing that i was really disappointed with was that i spend the day with many people, but did not spend it with my Lord. I woke up just in time to prepare to go to church. then rush, rush, rush, and i did not make the effort to set aside time for my Best Friend. i get really angry and upset with myself when i wake up late, or later than planned. cos then i feel as though i go though the day unprepared, unarmed, without meeting my Heavenly Father first. It's like i left Him waiting while i laid in bed fast asleep. aiyah, mel. cannot liketat. cannot liketat.

even this past two days, i overslept. late for prayer. argghh. i feel so..arggh with myself. its like the whole rythm of my day is spoilt. cos now in Bible sch and having to do homeschooling, its like, if i dun spend time alone with God before i leave the house, when can i? prayer, coffee talk, bs lesson, lunch, homeshooling, dinner... the whole day is packed.

but being late these past few days, i've also learnt some lessons.
who am I living for? I find myself thinking thoughts like "what will so and so think of me being late". i think of my reputation before men. what will he think? but i realise that i should be living for the audience of One - God. being late, what would God think? looks like i haven't had my roof off and walls down, if not i wouldn't be caring so much about what others think about me.

Lord, help me to live for You, and to only be concerned about what You would think of me.

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recently, i've been having quite abit of questions when reading the Bible. and there's this struggle whether i should ask adults ard me (Ian, a.Lisa...others) the questions, but yet, i want to find the answers from the Bible. i think i should search out the Scriptures and let the Holy Spirit be my teacher, but of course, there is the tempatation to take the easier path in asking those around me. questions like what does cornerstone mean? and what does it mean to be perfect in 2 Chron 16:9? is this the same perfect as Matt 5 :48 - be ye perfect even as your Father...is perfect. how do i compare root words from the O.T and N.T when one is in Hebrew and the other Greek? deeper questions like from the passage 2 Peter 1:3-11 - how do i find the balance between depending upon God and "besides this, adding to my faith all those virtues"? and lots more questions. i've written em down, but i think i needa purpose to find time to answer em. :D

okaay, i can't really believe i'll be flying this fri night alrdy. so fast!
i believe that God is teaching me things even through this trip. most of all is that i am not indispensable, and that it is not that God needs me, but that it is a privilege to be able to serve the King of kings. i wouldn't be ard for 2 weekends, and im tempted to think who will take care of the younger gals? who will look out for them? then God reminds me that i am not indispensable and that the gals are HIS and He will see to it that they are taken care of, not to worry. then i think of all the things i'll be missin out on. the welcome thing at ian's place and the meeting on the Cambodia trip and God reminds me that don't think the whole world revolves around you!

Life still goes on even if u're around or not. I think this time of going away will be a good one. one to refresh, recharge, prepare my heart for church camp, prioritise things in my life. figure out why i do what i do, not just to go through the motion week after week.
why do i attend Fri evening prayer? for others to see? or to talk to God?
why attend Uth Worship? cos its a habit already? or to meet with God?
why go to Sat morn prayer? so that i can have lunch with the rest after prayer? or to interceed for the ministry?
why go to church on Sunday? cos my family goes so i go? cos I love God and want to meet with Him?
why serve in Children's Ministry? cos all the youths are serving there? or cos i believe that children are full of potential and have the capacity to make decisions for God?

Lord, please save me from going though the motion. it is so easy to do so. may everything i do be done out of an overflow of love for You. i love You, i really do.

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this has been a ultra long post, thanks for bearing with me. last thing.
i just want to thank God for how in the past few days, He has drawn me and my sister, Christine, closer together. my bro, Caleb, and I are close cos we played alot growing up and our age gap is just 3 years. me and my sis are on good terms, but our age gap is 7 years and so not as close. but recently, our hearts have been knitted together. Thank God for her smsing me really sweet messages that never fail to warm my heart, telling me about how she's thinking of me even as she is on a bus. or even while having lunch at a Jap restraunt, msging me to arrange for lunch together. (: on mon, we went to the Jap restraunt together for lunch and it was on her. :D hehe. oh course, she's getting a pay check. ahah. so. yep. but it's great to be close to my da jie.

thank You, God. (:

2009-05-20T00:33:00.004+08:00

my heart over flows with praise to the Lord! :D

I will praise thee, O Lord my God, with all my heart: and I will glorify thy name for evermore.
Psalm 86:12

wow. i thank the Lord for all that He is doing in my life. many lessons He has been teaching me in the past week or so, this is just a gist:

- He has been teaching me the joy of prayer. The joy of communing with Him as friend to friend. He is giving me the assurance that nothing, yes nothing, is too small in His sight. That the slightest concern i may have is precious and valuable to Him and that He loves for me to talk to Him. He is teaching me a little more on waiting on Him in prayer. On waiting for His answer, not just to bring my prayer requests before the Throne and scurry off in life. I am to wait at His feet for the answer, for He never fails to give an answer. The best answer, be it - go, wait or no. His will is best

-He has been showing me that this Christian Life is one of progressive growth and change. It is not like i will totally change completely to become Christ-like over one night. It is a life long process of His Spirit working in me to mould and shape me to be more like Christ. and this my friend, requires patience. Much patience. At times it may seem like nothing is happening, or even worst, i seem to be going backwards! but take heart, His child, for He is faithful to fufill His promise in Phil 1:6 that "Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform [it] until the day of Jesus Christ:"

-God has been teaching me that just when i think i've got it - when i think i've understood the exhange life, or when i think that i have learnt all there is in the Christian life - that i've got to stop, take a step back and realise that all i know is only the tip of an ice berg. It is only a little of the deep and intimate relationship God wants to have with me. Not so fast mel, your head is puffing up, YOU DON'T KNOW IT ALL!

-God has been showing me that it's not what i can do for Him that matters, but what i let Him do through me. It's not me (in my own energy and strength) living for God, it's God living His life through me! It makes a whole lot of a difference! Dependence on self vs Dependence on Christ! in my own strength and energy, or in His stregth.

and that's not all...i know there's still more. but i can't really think of em now cos something excites my heart so so much more!

Children's Camp '09! - We are preparing for rain! Are you ready?

Where do i start? I am just simply so so so excited at what God is going to do! :D
i thank and praise God for the vision that He has given Jeremy and i am very sure it is one from God. it is not some idea creative idea crafted out by man, but it is God, it is God's will and His will has to be done! Because it is HIS will, we can go forth in God confidence!

When Jeremy first shared this vision on Sunday with the carebears, it so excited my heart!
There was just convicion, passion, fire and energy in all that Jeremy shared and most of all faith in the never failing Word of God. It has to be God.

and you know various things that were shared then and even in the conversation that followed with him still lingers in my mind:

+ The Children's Ministry is God's ministry! Children's Camp is God's camp! and with God we do not need to care about success or failure bcos with God in it, there is no failure! we are on victory ground! and everything with God is success. It is His work, we are merly His vessels and He will see this camp to past.

+ We are preparing for rain! We are preparing for an outpouring of His Spirit! and it is only right if we are expecting rain to really go about preaparing full fledge for it.

+ It is interesting something Jem mentioned. That even if God takes away our feeling, even if God takes away our excitment about camp, are we still able to trust in God by faith resting upon His Word? Will we walk by faith, even when we cannot see?

Here are some facts from God's Word which we can claim, irregardless of feelings or not:

Matthew 21:22 - And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive.
Wow! look at this promise from God's Word! All things, whatsover, ask in prayer, believing - you shall receive! May we claim this promise and fall on our knees pleading with God for the salvation of the many unsaved souls He will bring in, and also the spiritual awakening that will come upon the believers.

Jeremiah 33:3 - Call unto me, and I will answer thee, and shew thee great and mighty things, which thou knowest not.
This verse speaks for itself.Call, God will answer. Not only answer, but more than answer, He will show us great and mighty things which we do not know. Great and mighty things which we have never seen before.

Psalm 81:10 - I [am] the LORD thy God, which brought thee out of the land of Egypt: open thy mouth wide, and I will fill it.
In the beginning of this verse, God is establishing Himself. Who is this God whom we love and serve? He is the God who is powerful, strong and mighty, bringing his people in time past out of bondage into freedom. He is the great I AM. He is the God who today is sill that same God. He never changes and the power which He displayed in Egypt, the 10 plauges He brought upon that land, simply goes to show us His mighty power. Open wide your mouth, and God will fill it.

May we stand upon the Word as camp approaches nearer and nearer. Standing on the promises I cannot fall, listening every moment to the Spirit's call. Resting in my Saviour as my all in all, standing on the promises of God!

+ and what then may be one thing that will prevent God from working mightly? - it is unbelief. Scripture says in Matthew 13:58 that "And he did not many mighty works there because of their unbelief." Look at this. What hindered Jesus from doing many mighty miracles in His own country? -- unbelief. May every bit of unbelief in our lives be purged that Christ may be free to do many mighty works in our midst. :)

but wait. look at this, the mercy and grace of God:
He says in 2 Tim 2:13 that even "If we believe not, yet he abideth faithful: he cannot deny himself."

What does this verse mean? This is a short excerpt from Matthew Henry's commentry on this verse:
He is faithful to his promises; neither one nor the other shall fall to the ground, no, not the least, jot nor tittle of them. If we be faithful to Christ, he will certainly be faithful to us: he cannot deny himself, cannot recede from (withdraw) any word that he hath spoken, for he is yea, and amen, the faithful witness.

Even if we don't believe, God still abides faithful. He is still faithful to fufill His promises. Only, with unbelief, we will miss out on the great things God wants to and can do.

+ and I believe that this is a Spiritual Battle! we can expect attacks from the evil one if we are doing the Lord's work. Hence, we must -- as Ephesians 6:11 put it -- "Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." and also we must be "Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints" (Eph 6:18)

+ Hence, we must Pray, Pray, PRAY! This is a spiritual battle, and this battle can only be fought on out knees!

i know this has been a lengthy post (: but nevertheless, important and vital nuggets.

A note to all serving in Children's Camp:
Let us go forth in prayer, bathing this camp in prayer. We have a great God and He wants to do mighty things. The quesion Jesus puts forth to you today is: Believe ye that I am able to do this? Believe thou that I have the power to do this?
May we be able to say, be it with fear and trembling or with full assurance in our hearts -- yes, Lord. I do believe.

A last note to all who are not serving in this Children's Camp or who are not in Children's Ministry:
Please also do keep us and this camp in prayer. (: we will appreciate your prayer very much. :D and if you are keen or have a burden to serve or help out in this camp in any way, pls do let Jeremy know. (:

thanks for bearing with me. (: haha. God bless and good night!

2009-05-15T17:16:00.002+08:00

Lord, High and Holy, meek and lowly,
Thou has brought me to the valley of vision,
where I live in the depths but see thee in the heights;
hemmed in by mountains of sin I behold
thy glory.

Let me learn by paradox
that the way down is the way up,
that to be low is to be high,
that the broken heart is the healed heart,
that the contrite spirit is the rejoicing spirit,
that the repenting soul is the victorious soul,
that to have nothing is to possess all,
that to bear the cross is to wear the crown,
that to give is to receive,
that the valley is the place of vision.

Lord, in the daytime stars can be seen from deepest wells,
and the deeper the wells the brighter
thy stars shine;
Let me find thy light in my darkness,
thy life in my death,
thy joy in my sorrow,
thy grace in my sin,
thy riches in my poverty
thy glory in my valley.

--from The Valley of Vision: A Collection of Puritan Prayers and Devotions

2009-05-14T20:17:00.003+08:00

Breathe On Me Now

When my soul has cried its tears
And my heart begins to faint
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me
When my days are filled with longing
And my spirit groans and waits
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me
I'm calling and waiting
Your presence Lord is life to me

Breathe on me now as I bow down
I'm desperate Lord for more of You
Come satisfy until I
Am even more in need of You

When my dreams have been forgotten
And my hope begins to fade
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me
When my days are filled with searching
And my strength has given way
Will You draw near
Will You meet with me

--
i know i said that i'll post on what i've learnt in the exchange life, well..maybe i'll do that soon.
but now its not really a right time for me to do so.
pray for me, though I understand the exchange life, i still have some stuff preventing me from really making the exchange.
sorry my thoughts are all jumbled up.
maybe im just at this point --confused.
and i dun know when i can be un-confused.
well, well. will appreciate ur prayers. thanks. (:

Your presence Lord is life to me...

2009-05-10T00:00:00.002+08:00

today is Mother's Day.
funny how we set aside one pathetic day to remember our mums when we should actually be grateful and thankful for them everyday of our lives. why? cos who are we to say that we will live to see tomorrow? Our lives are in God hands and it is He who decides our time.

this post is dedicated to my dearest mum, whom i love so dearly.
though she may not get to she this, i want to give a public testimony to thank my mum. :)

dearest mum,
i have so much to say to you.
so where do i start?
firstly, a very Blessed Mothers Day to you!
i have two songs and two verses for you and after that im going to say more stuff.
enjoy.

I Love You a song paraphased from We Love You by the Herbster Trio
From the day that I was born,
I felt the love within your heart.
You have led in so many godly ways,
and helped to cleanse the inward parts.
You have taught me from God's Word
and soon I made Him Lord of all.
And now with a very grateful heart,
sweet memories I'll recall.

O Mum I love you.
I rise up and call you blessed.
You've taught me in the way to go
and I will not depart.
There's never been a day,
when I wondered if you loved me.

As the Lord moves me on,
O the blessings we will share.
You have reared me on God's Word,
and you have bathed me much in prayer.
May my life be a shining light,
to this world in darkness, lost.
And I will serve the Lord my God,
no matter what the cost.

It Was Your Life by Mac Lynch (i think)
Before I took a breath,
before I took a step.
Unnumbered prayers were spoken,
were spoken just for me.
And as I rested peacefully,
there in your loving arms.
You dreamed of what tomorrow would bring,
and what my future could be.

You watched me as each tiny step grew stronger,
you guided me, through choices I would make.
And though I didn't know the road that i'll embark,
your prayers would always light the path I take.

Your hands reached out to lift me when I falter,
your arms would hold me when I was afraid.
Your eyes would see right through the dark and stormy clouds,
and point me to a brighter day.
Your steps would set the path that I would follow.
Your words of hope, my broken dreams could mend.
You heart of love would always show me -- Jesus.
But, it was your life, that led me to Him.

My childhood days are gone,
and time keeps moving on.
It seems as though the months, the years,
quickly slip away.
The life of faith you offered,
examples of God's love.
Is the life I long to share,
with my children in the future.

Your hands reached out to lift me when I falter,
your arms would hold me when I was afraid.
Your eyes would see right through the dark and stormy clouds,
and point me to a brighter day.
Your steps would set the path that I would follow.
Your words of hope, my broken dreams could mend.
You heart of love would always show me -- Jesus.
But, it was your life, that led me to Him.

and its still your life, that leads me to Him.
-- to Jesus.

:) i love you so much mum, and actucally there's not much i can say after these two songs cos they really sum up what i want to tell you. Especially, the second one. it was your life that led me to Him, and its still your life that leads me to Him.

thank you for--
loving me just as i am.
loving all of us (Christine, Caleb & me) equally.
being such a wonderful wonderful godly example for me.
showing me that the Holy Spirit can change my melancholic temperament beyond recgonition, just as He did with you.
praying for me even when i was still in your tummy.
allowing all of us siblings to love each other. :) [i love you, Christine & Caleb]
teaching me my p's and my q's.
always being so supportive of me in whatever i am embark on.
encouraging me in my talents of music, art and running.
your hugs and kisses. <3!

the list can go on and on, but i'd like to thank someone else too.
I'd like to thank God for you.
for deeming me worthy to receive a mum like you. :)
to be place in a family with love.

and i have to say that growing up hasn't been easy for me.
the revellious spirit kicks in.
and i want to say that im sorry for the times i've been rude to you or even questioned what you had in mind for me.
i don't know why, but i find it harder to talk to you and share as im growing up, but maybe in time to come, times will go back like they used to and how i used to pour out my heart with you on your bed.
its not really that i dun wanna share whats going on in my life with you.
but maybe..its wierd? ahaha. but i do hope to share more with you. :)

and even though i question the curfew of 10.30 you and dad set for me, and how u dun really allow me to stay overr at my friends place.. how you always want to know where am i going, what will i be doing....i know, i know you and dad do it for my own good. for my own good. you do it out of love and want to protect me from any things that may happen so unexpectedly that would leave me nightmares for the rest of my life. no, i don't want those to happen to me either.
but i hope you realise that i'm growing up too. :) and im going to be all of 17 in about 14 days time. could i have a little request, to have more freedom? haha. its not like im not having freedom now. yes, i do have. but i still feel a lil kind of restricted, a kind of a lil still trapped in a box with a little room.

ha. forget what i just said, today is YOUR day. :)
enjoy it.
rem, i love you! (:

you dear sweet little (still little) daughter,
melody joy.

"Her children arise up, and call her blessed...Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised." Proverbs 31:28a, 30

2009-05-08T16:17:00.006+08:00

I've just come from the Throne Room.

down from the mountain, to live in the valley. :)

wow wow wow. where do i start?
God is so so amazing! :D
i thank Him for the work that He is doing in my heart, in my life.
so much from the exchange life has got me thinking...

i wish i could shoutout and tell all christians about this Christ Life!
cos its the normal Christian Life! (:
its like, taking it in today's terms,
we are offered an iPhone. but we reject it and want to carry on using our Nokia 3310!
*Nokia 3310 is a really really old model.
haha. getting the picture a little?

okayy, let me try to describe life for most Christians (including me)
this is from my experience growing up from a Christain background...
we come into this world, for those of us who have Christian families,
we are made familar to the things of God from a young age.
we go to church every Sunday, sometimes we may tag along for the mid-week prayer meeting.
our parents may have family devotions with us everyday.
they teach us good Christian moral values.
we learn that a 'good person', a 'spiritual' person looks like this.
and so we grow up striving to be this person. the person everyone is pleased with. who looks soo good from the outside.

as we grow up...
some may succeed at becoming the 'good/spiritual' person others may not be too good at it.
but nevertheless, we all try..
and as we grow up, we start to be introduced to the things of this world, we start to be influenced to think the way the world thinks. and subtly, without knowing, we are no more the 'good' person that we once were. or for those who still succeed at being 'good', the outside is good, but the inside is rotting.

and we all wonder what on earth are we here for?
whats the meaning of life with all this pain and all?
why am i so lonely, so miserable?
why am i feeling so empty!!!? (though i am a Christian, and i thought Christians aren't supposed to feel empty..so why the emptiness?)

ah, ever felt like that?
i have. and the worst part is, my outside looked so good, but on the inside, i was dying. dying.
i always asked God, where is this abundant life that you promised?
how come i don't have it? how come so empty?

but my heart is so proud. you wouldn't beleive this, but i was so self-righteous that i thought i did not have sin! imagine that. or even if i had sin, it wasn't alot.
i thought that way cos i only looked on the outside.
outwardly, i was not rude, not angry, not rebellious....
so that equated to = good?
nah!
inside was stinking! yucks! so much pride, jealously, comparision...pride was the biggest. it blinded me to think that i was somebody. that i had it.
awful right?
welcome, please meet - the FLESH.
that is the FLESH.
im just so disgusted at my flesh! eeeee!

okay back to the iPhone and Nokia 3310 thing..
you see, before I got saved(accepted Jesus to save me from sin) i was a Nokia 3310 model. everyone starts out as a Nokia 3310 model. in this model, we are dead. spiritually dead i mean. and sin's penalty and power still has control over the Nokia 3310.

but.. when I put my trust in Jesus Chirst,

He makes me a new creation! :) praise God!
do you believe so?
you may not feel it, you may not think it,
but it is true!
why? cos God said it, and God can't lie.
He said in 2 Cor 5:17
"Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away, behold, all things are become new."
yupp, the analogy is limited and cannot expressed all that happened at Salvation, but think with me.. when we trusted in Christ, the model of our phone, from being a lau pok pok Nokia 3310 we become an iPhone! (: we become a totally new creature. new on the inside(smth this analogy cannot express)

so..
we are the iPhone right?
being an iPhone we have become alive and sin's penalty and power has no more rule over us.
but then many of us, yeah we are the iPhone on the outside right, but we don't like the inside of the iPhone, we don't like the functions...so, we go and get the inside changed back to the old Nokia 3310 functions. and we go on though life like that...

im sorry this analogy does not totally signify the spiritual truth here, but this is the best i can think of for now. :p will try to think of a better one soon.

ya, but basically the point is this:
many of us are given a new life in Chirst, but what does that mean to us? how does it change the way we live? it is sad that many of us go on living the same way..go on living in the flesh, and giving in to all our fleshy desires. oh, at this point, i'd like to define the flesh - the flesh is everything i am apart from Christ. yeah, so we were saying, we go on living in the flesh, and then we ask, why so empty? why no peace and joy?

and the scary thing is that we can do seemingly good things in the flesh. things like even ministry or serving God... something i fell victim to.

so you may ask, so how do we know what is done in the flesh and what is done in the Spirit?

Its not about what we do or do not do, but rather, why we do it and on whom are we depending on to do it.

take some time to think about it...
Its not about what we do or do not do, but rather, why we do it and on whom are we depending on to do it.
it all boils down to what is our functional source of life? what are we depending on to be successful in life?

and just one more point and i'm done. haha. (: thanks for bearing with me.
it's this.

so you may ask, how do i know if i'm in the Spirit?
one good way is this.
have you, today, yesterday, in the past week, been esteeming others better than yourself?
When you're in the Spirit, you'll esteem others better than themselves.
and this is somthing i've been not able to do. cos of my pride. so i was thinking about it, issn't it so hard to esteem others better than myself..then, euerka! when i am depending on Jesus to live His life through me, He will allow me to esteem others better than myself. and it issn't a tiring thing, cos hey, its not me! its Jesus living through me! :) anyway, here it says in Philppians 2 that this humility is one that Chirst had...and if Christ lives through me, then its possible! :D

3 Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves.
4 Look not every man on his own things, but every man also on the things of others.
5 Let this mind be in you, which was also in Christ Jesus:
6 Who, being in the form of God, thought it not robbery to be equal with God:
7 But made himself of no reputation, and took upon him the form of a servant, and was made in the likeness of men:
8 And being found in fashion as a man, he humbled himself, and became obedient unto death, even the death of the cross.

well, i know this has been a lllooongg post, but theres just so much cool stuff im learning! and i can't help but to share it! (: cos think of it, how revolutionary it will be if we applied what we learnt to our lives? living life in the Spirit, moment by moment, situation by situation.. what a joy life will be! :D

something to think abt as i finally end off (haha!)

It is not about me living my life for God. It is about Jesus Christ living His life through me.

not me living my life for God.
it is about Jesus Chist living His life through me... through me.
what have i to do then? simply, let Him.
let Him live His life through me.

May we let Him live His life through us! (: God, may you be glorified in our lives.

"I am Thine, O Lord and I have heard Thy voice and it told Thy love to me...draw me nearer, nearer Blessed Lord to Thee..to Thee. Take my heart, and make it Thine."

2009-05-06T22:57:00.004+08:00

i wanted to do a post, but after finding this song on YouTube, i decided to post it.
i first heard this song when Beverly sang it at Martha's wedding. then i saw the lyrics on Chia Wen's blog.

Grace:

GRACE

here are the lyrics, though its also in the video...

My heart is so proud.
My mind is so unfocused.
I see the things You do through me
as great things I have done.
And now You gently break me,
then lovingly You take me
and hold me as my Father
and mold me as my Maker.

I ask you:
"How many times will you pick me up,
when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory,
how far will forgiveness abound?"
And you answer:
"My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."

At times I may grow weak
and feel a bit discouraged,
knowing that someone,
somewhere could do a better job.
For who am I to serve You?
I know I don't deserve You.
And that's the part that burns in my heart
and keeps me hanging on.

I ask you:
"How many times will you pick me up,
when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory,
how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer:
"My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."
You are so patient with me, Lord.

As I walk with You,
I'm learning what Your grace really means.
The price that I could never pay
was paid at Calvary.
So, instead of trying to repay You,
I'm learning to simply obey You
by giving up my life to You
For all that You've given to me.

I ask you:
"How many times will you pick me up,
when I keep on letting you down?
And each time I will fall short of Your glory,
how far will forgiveness abounds?"
And you answer: " My child, I love you.
And as long as you're seeking My face,
You'll walk in the pow'r of My daily sufficient grace."

2009-05-05T23:23:00.002+08:00

today marks the start of a very exciting Journey! (: and im excited!
today was the first day of "The Exchange Life" course with a.Lisa. and im so looking forward to the days to come. Its just amazing how God has prepared my heart for this. Without knowing whatever text she's gonna use, somehow, i started listening to the audio version of the Bible - Romans 6-8. I came across these chapters one day when i was very down and decided to go to botanics to spend some time with God. There, I knew i had to read God's Word, but I didn't know where to start and what to read. I decided to read the book of Romans. I read form the 1st Chapter to Chapter 8. I felt that there was something special abt chapters 6-8. and rightly so. today I learnt that Romans 6-8 address the issue of after becoming a Christian, now what? now how do i live that Christ life?

I hope to share my experiences from 'the exchanged life' and what i've learnt, here so you too may be blessed. rest assured, all that is shared in class among all my classmates is confidental, i'll only share here nugguts of truth gleamed and my own personal sharing. (:

here goes!

have you ever wondered if that abundant life that Jesus talked about in John 10:10 is really available for the Christian today? I have and many times, the devil will come and whisper in my ear.."no, its not possible".. what rubbish! IT IS POSSIBLE. what makes it possible? I tell you. It's the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ that makes it possible. For me, growing up in a Christian enviroment, sadly to say, i've never taken the death, burial and resurrection of my dear Lord Jesus to heart. Maybe like me, you've heard it countless times that you can even repeat the whole gospel message from memory. but i'd like to ask you, do you actually understand the fulness of the message? what the death, burial and resurrection of Christ means to me today? i don't think i do. but i would like to, and i pray that God will make all these so real to me in the days ahead as I think about and study more about His work on the cross and how it affects my life today.

well, in today's reading, i gleamed many truths, some of which i have not fully grasped yet. but well, here are some.

As taken from "Victory in Christ by Charles Trumpbull:
What are the conditions for a Victorious Life?
Surrender and Faith
but you may say, i've surrendered already. Why is there still no victory? The reason is that while there is no victory without surrender, there may be surrender without victory. Sometimes we may have "let go" but we may not have "let God". We may have surrendered our sins to Christ, but not our wills. Every habit of our lives, every ambition, dream, loved one, possession and our very self- He must have all these if He is to make Himself not only our Savior, but our life.

Many times when sharing the gospel with an unsaved one, we talk about how Jesus' death on the cross has freed us from the penalty of sin. Yes, that's true. But do we not know too that His death has freed us from the Power of Sin. and even if we know it, do we live like we know it?
what does it mean to be freed from the power of sin? simply put, sin has no more control over us. we are now able not to have to sin any longer. This truth should be absolutely revolutionary for the believer! (: Praise God, I am free from the power of sin!

How then can and does this being freed from the power of sin take effect in my life?
Jesus offers to set us free not only from the penalty of out sin, but also from its power. Each of these two gifts are offered on the same terms: We accept only by letting Him do it all, as an outright gift. Every Christian has accepted the first offer. But many have failed to accept the second. Why is that so? I think it's because like me, many times, I believe that my own effort, and will and determination-with Christ's help, of course-is the way to victory. This just blew my mind. You mean i can't do anything? I have to simply accept that Jesus has done it all? Yes, Christ's offer to us here and now is immediate and complete freedom from the power of known sin. Praise God! Therefore, let us start praising Him for victory, instead of praying for it. He already has given us the Victory! (:

this has been a lengthy and heavy post. There still is more, but we'll probably save it for another time. ;) for now, if you don't like to read and skipped through everything written above, I hope you walk away with one thought, that is - the Victorous Christian Life IS POSSIBLE for all Christians today! Possible because we have been freed from the power of sin if we but accept Christ's offer. Possible too cos of other reasons which have yet to be addressed. :D

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okay, on a side note, there has been something else that has been on my mind.

To her who is in love with him;
To him who is in love with her.

We all have special people in our hearts, don't we?
People who have made a difference in our lives, somehow.
For the married, it may be your spouse, your kids.
For the single, the apple of you eye of another gender?
For youth, it could be anybody? haha.

I too have someone. Someone who has made a huge impact on my life. Someone whom I really thank God for.

Well, I've been thinking...

If only I could love to talk to God as much as I love to talk to him/her.
What would our prayer life be like, i wonder?
Wouldn't we not be talking to God 24/7?

If only we could love to spend time with God as much as we love to spend time with him/her.
If only we could love to be in God's presence as much as we love to be in the presence of the one we love.
Will we not then go into the presence of our Creator King whenever we can?
Will we not run to His presence just to feel the warm of His glow and smell the sweet fragrace of Christ?

If only we could love to go to God's House as much as we love to go to the house of him/her.
Will we not be found in the House of God as often as we can go there?

If only we could love to hear what God has to say to us as much as we love to hear him/her talk to us.
Will not the Bible become our favourite and most well read book?

If only we could...love God for who He is, putting all else this world could afford aside.
If only... it is not an if! It is a can. Yes, we can. May we this day purpose in our heart to love Jesus with a love so strong that no love for any other in this world could compete. Let us love Jesus, for who He is, for all He has done.

Love demands love.
God commendeth His love towards us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.
How much do you love me, Jesus?
"This much" replied Jesus, and with that we see His arms outstreched on that cruel cross.
Every drop of blood shed, every strip He bore for you and me cries out in love.
Oh, it was all out of love, for love. For you and me.

Friend, if you have not, why not pause and take some time now to thank God for His love and let Him know your heart. That you want to love Him supremely above everything else this world may offer.

Jesus, my heart has grown so so cold. Please warm my heart again, to You, to Your love. I thank you love me the way I am. Please be real to me, dear Jesus. I desire You, I long for You, and yet, my heart is so cold. Please melt my heart. I want to love you as I should. Know You as I should. Draw me to an ever deeper relationship with You. You have my heart, here it is; make it Yours. I love You.

2009-04-30T20:29:00.002+08:00

okay, i had the inspiration to blog some days ago. but i didn't have the time.
now i have the time, still have the inspiration, but its not as strong. ahaha.

Homeschooling: one step forward, two steps back. i seriously empthise with people who owe huge debts. it seems never ending. haha.

let's look on the brighter side! :D

God has been doing a work in my heart! and i thank Him for that!
i now want to KNOW Him. I want to know the very person of Jesus!
you know the Christian life has so many things, so many terms, so many people-
Faith, Revival, Brokeness, Prayer, Abiding, Repentance
Jesus, the Holy Spirit...
i've often wondered to myself, so what is that ONE key that 'unlocks' the rest?
what is the ONE thing i should focus on, give all my energy to.
i think i may have found it;
i've found it in the person of JESUS CHRIST.
think about it. the focal point in History: Jesus
the famous saying: "it's all about -Jesus"

its, Jesus. what Pastor Paul concludede the msg on Sunday with still sticks with me.
Philippians 3:4-12

4Though I might also have confidence in the flesh. If any other man thinketh that he hath whereof he might trust in the flesh, I more:
5Circumcised the eighth day, of the stock of Israel, of the tribe of Benjamin, an Hebrew of the Hebrews; as touching the law, a Pharisee;
6Concerning zeal, persecuting the church; touching the righteousness which is in the law, blameless.
7But what things were gain to me, those I counted loss for Christ.
8Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ,
9And be found in him, not having mine own righteousness, which is of the law, but that which is through the faith of Christ, the righteousness which is of God by faith:
10That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection, and the fellowship of his sufferings, being made conformable unto his death;
11If by any means I might attain unto the resurrection of the dead.
12Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus.

That's in Paul's context. Now let's apply it to my life, a paraphrase of Phil 3:4-12:
I may have alot of stuff I can be proud about:
I was born in a Christian Family. My dad's a pastor. Saved at the age of 3. Have always been the guai girl (haha!) yadayadayada....
But I count all these things as useless! Rubbish! they pale in comparision to knowing Christ! Knowing Christ who is Lord of my life. And that I may be righteous in Him by faith.
Oh that I may know Him. Not know about Him! but to truly know Him, to know Jesus as He really is and to be all He said he would be.
Not only to know Him, but to know the power of His resurrection, this same power that worketh in me.
And also to know His sufferings. To have a share in His sufferings, becoming like him in his death.
Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, Im far from perfect. But I press on to know Jesus just as how He knows me through and through.

i've been thinking alot about Knowing Christ recently.

Jesus, i want to know You. I've had enough of knowing about You. Now I want to know You in a real and personal way. I thank You for Your promise that if I draw near to You, You will draw near to me. I love You.

2009-04-22T18:25:00.004+08:00

i know, im supposed to be studying now. :/ woops. but i K.Oed the moment i reached home at 2 just now. anyway, i hope to make this a short one. a quick one.

I stopped eating for 2 days.
and I'm amazed

at the way i've stopped to grow.

and what amazed me more is the way im rotting on the inside.

though nothing on the outside seems to have changed, its something only i know.

its funny cos I dun seem to be hungry :(

i don't like this 'feeling', this distance between Us.

i want to come back. i know i can.

there's just this barrier between us.

its not like we haven't been talking.

its just that i haven't had time or maybe i should say (haven't MADE the time)

to sit at your feet and listen to what you have to say.

so Lord, i pray, please tear down this barrier of laziness, unbelief

and all that stops me from drawing close to You.

give me a hunger, a consuming hunger for Your Word.
help me to be faithful and consistent in spending time with You.

im sorry for the time i abandoned You.

i love You and want to love You more.

please teach me how.

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well well, went to the sin seh yesterday to get my jaw fixed, so now its fixed! yay! and i can eat all i want. gaga. no la, just kidding. well, came across something yesterday that deeply chalenged my heart. while waiting for my turn at the sin seh, i went to cornerstone's bookshop -faithworks to check out the books there. saw a cute little book entitled "KiteSong" and beside it i saw a paper saying that the money collected from the sale of this book, and a cd would go to needy children in Nepal and Cambodia. so i was like-oh, okayy. but what really challenged me was when i read the book, i came to the end and this is what it said:

"Words from the Author:

This book is my gift to you, and my way of saying a sincere word of thanks for your compassion and love for needy children around the world. Like many of you, the burden of third world children has weighed on my heart. I had been writing regularly to an 18 year-old Cambodian girl, Somaly, whom I had met on a Youth Expedition trip to Cambodia in 2004. She was a bright and diligent girl, full of hopes for a future better than her farmer parents’ plight. While I myself was preparing for my A-level examinations, however, I received a letter from her. Her hopes for a university education were dashed as “my mother is ill, I have to harvest everyday… There is no rain and still there is no rain.” Being financially, physically and mentally strained, Somaly was eventually hospitalized for a few days. My attempts to coordinate a sponsorship for her higher education failed at the time but it is my hope that through this project, many children like her would have a chance at receiving an education they would otherwise be deprived of.

During my solo 5-week volunteer trip to Nepal on the Mission Internship Training Experience programme by Methodist Missions Society this January in 2006, I saw how various ministries and homes had shed light onto the lives of orphans and women who were abused, widowed or destitute. I grew to respect the people who saw their sacrifice to look after the poor and orphaned as merely an “adjustment”. This book is a small effort of mine to make their jobs a little bit easier, and a tribute to their dedication and love for the less fortunate. It is my prayer that they will be always feel encouraged and continue in their good work. As a product of some of my dreams realized, I hope this book will be an inspiration to youths in particular, who dream of stepping out to make a difference to the lives of others. With much prayer and hard work, many things are possible.

Education is the key to stepping out of poverty. It gives children hope, esteem and a future. Thank you for giving another child in a third world country the chance to receive the care and attention needed for a decent education. Your love has given them a chance at realizing their dreams.

Wai Jia August, 2006"

If that was it, it would have moved me but not as much as when i saw in the next line that

"Wai Jia is a 19 year old girl who grduated from VJC and is now studying to become a medical doctor. She hopes on day to be a missions doctor."

Wow! that blew my mind. she was 19 when she drew the book and helped in a huge way the publishing of that book. That deeply challenged me. Young as she is, she was doing whatever she could to help better the lives of children in another third-world country. She didn't need to, but this is the love, the love of God which overflows from a heart abiding in Him.

Sometimes i wonder, is there more that we can do to impact the lives of others, or are we just stasfied with our lives at status co, living in our comfort zone while there are many out there (people whom we haven't heard of, situations which we haven't seen) who are suffering in povery and would very much be blessed and happy if someone came along to encourage them, give them education to get out of the poverty cycle..

i wonder....

This is Wai Jia's blog: http://kitesong.blogspot.com/

some of her posts blessed my heart, especially the one about the potter on March 26, 2009.

and i can also relate to her post on April 12, 2009. how at times, i doubt God's calling and question it. :/ haha.

The website which talks more about the kitesong project is: http://kitesongproject.wordpress.com/

2009-04-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

God is so good,
God is so good,
God is so good,
He's so good to me.

(: God is so so so good!
Today has been an awesome day. I know i should be slping soon, tmr is the Lord's Day.
This morn was amazing, i jumped out of bed at 7.40am. that is so unlike me! ahaha! expecially since i slept at 2 plus last night. but i thank God i woke up, so that i could start the day with Him. Sitting at His feet and listening to Him. It was a great time I had with God. He thought me 7 lessons from Matthew 12-14. but one thing that really stood out was Matthew 13:58. God just rebuked me. rebuked me at my unbelief. O thou of little faith, wherefore dids't thou doubt?

Matthew 13:58 reads ' And he did not many mighty works there because of their unbelif'.
the context here is A prophet is without honour in His own country. Jesus had went back to His own country, very willing and ready to do mighty works there. but he could not. it's not that He didn't want to. He simply could not. why? cos of the people's unbelief. I see myself in this situation so much. Unbelief. How much God wants to do mighty works in my life, my family, the sec 1 & 2 group, the Uth Ministry, GLCC, this nation-but He can't, cos of my unbelief. cos of our unbelief. at times i stop to wonder and think, do i really know whom I'm coming before in prayer. do i really know what im saying, what im praying? i dun think i do. Cos If I would really see God as He really is and to believe Him to be all He said He is, wow! my life would be alot different. my approach towards prayer, everything would be differnet. Oh may we learn to see God as He is and live accordingly.

that just gripped me. but i pray that it would not just be something that hits me for a day. may i make changes in my life to apply what i've learned.

After spending time with God, i went down to have breakfast. on the way up i saw Denise sitting at the void deck below my block waiting for English tuition to start. glad that i could get a chance to catch up with her a little. went home and had to run some errands for my mum that's why i was late for morn prayer. raaahhhh. i don't like to be late! had a good time of morn prayer. went down with Jia Wen for a time of sharing and prayer. haha! we had such a good time talking that time seemed to fly by so so fast! like more than one hour but it didn't seem that long. but i was really encouraged by the conversation with Jia Wen. i was asking about her feedback on the sec 1 & 2 group. She said that she preferred to come for Uth Worship then the activity, so i was quite interested to know why. She said that she likes Uth Worship, when i asked her why, she said she likes to hear what Ian shares. Wow! i was blown away. then she continued and said that its cos she wants to grow deeper. (: i was like PRAISE GOD! (in my heart) i just thank God for little encouragements like these. that young as they may be, sec 1, sec 2, they have the desire and hunger for the things of God. to grow deeper in Him! oh may i point these young ones to Christ, to the one who loves them so much more than i ever can, to the one who laid down His life for them!

in our sharing, we also talked about a gal whom i've met before, she came to Uth Worship once. well, the sharing just impressed upon my heart, the need and hunger for LOVE in the youth of today. actually, hasn't it always been the case? don't we all one to know that we are loved? that we are secure and that someone cares for us? this is especially strong amongst youths and if they aren't pointed to the true LOVE, then they will result to all sorts of means. gangs. smoking. steady relationships. whatever. as long as they know someone loves them and will be there for them. so something to sooth that pain, that emptinesss, that longing. well, all these may fill but for a moment. Only GOD can fill the longing soul. may we be pointing them to Him!

okay, its late. just one more thing. Just thank God too for being able to walk to the bus stop with Andrew Yip. Thanks Andrew for bring so open. thanks for the sharing.
well, many times i expect, we expect people around us to be just like us. what we must see is that every one is created unique. Each of us are special in God's sight. All of us are made different and some people just need more time to open up. More time before they may share their hearts with you, but meanwhile, patience is the key.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day, I thank God for sustaining me through today with strength though i only had about 5 hours sleep. well, God please grant me strength to go through tomorrow too. Good night everyone! :D

2009-04-18T00:39:00.004+08:00

i know its late and i should be sleeping by now, but theres so much on my heart i've gotta let it out. (:

today has been an eventful day. morn life in the Spirit at Ian's place, church, met Gwyn and back to church for Uth Worship, had dinner at Adams with Gwyn, Jessica and Claud then back to Gwyn's place with Claud. then a secret adventure. *winks.* and send Claud to the doorstep then home. home. ahh, its so good to be home, after this long day. its so good to be home, to be back in fellowship with God.

Was really really blessed by the sharing about Spiritual Gifts during Lits time.

We talked abt how do we discover our spiritual gifts?
by:
-serving in various ministries

-burdens and desires laid on our hearts

-prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to show us

-asking leaders around us

How do we then, develop our Spiritual Gifts?

by:

-Exposure

-Exercise

-Equiping

-Eternity Focused

-Encouragement

-Empowerment

-Encourager (Discipleship)

i know there are 3 more E's but they can't come to my mind now and I dun have my lits book with me, so anyway, here are the 7 E's not really in order.

Well, though im not too sure and haven't really really confirmed my spiritual gifts, i shared with the group 3 burderns and desires on my heart. Admin, the Sec 1 & 2 gp and missions.

all of which i've had lies told to me. at times i believe them and then get discouraged. like so for example admin, i sometimes wonder, can't everyone take minutes? everyone can use the com, microsoft word, exel... but i learnt today that not every one can take succint minutes, there are somethings in life that only you can do. Thank God for the encouragement of the lits group not to undermine the little things in life. God says: be faithful in little things and i will make you a ruler over many. Mel, be faithful in little things.

And for the sec 1 & 2 group (yet to find a name), thank God for the burdern and desire He has placed in my heart to love them and reach out to them. I see them as the future generation. Youths able to turn the world the right side up, do great things for God. God, please give me a love for them. Your love for them. Love them through me. Increse the shepherd's heart You have placed in me for them. (:

And missions: wow, this was really encouraging, really really mind blowing. Ever wondered why Im a runner? why on earth do i run? running is so tourturous right? so painful. ouch! haha. u know i dun think i frankly ever loved running. maybe. okay, maybe only the time when i was peaking in Sec 2. then i loved it. but ever since. ever since i platued(however u spell it, u know what i mean), running has been a pain. but ive been pressing on, going strong..forcing myself to at least complete the four years in ss. cos i believe if God sees me to it, He'll see me through it. So im sure He has His reasons why i ended up in ssp. but well, all things work out together for good to them that love God and are called according to His purposes. a sharing by a dear brother this morn illumined my eyes and prolly answered the question ive always been asking as to why on earth am i running? why am i a runner. u know, its so not like me. I dun have the mental toughness to fight. I give up easily, im afraid of pain. so why run? haha. why run? you know why? running has given me exposure. not exposure to the running standard of other countries (though it has), but exposure to countries as to their language and culture, main religion and receptivness.

Ever heard of the 10/40 window. Research has shown that of the 55 least evangelized countries, 97% of their population lives within the Ten Forty Window.
These are the list of countries in the 10/40 window (and if u realise, there're all around and pretty near Singapore)

Afghanistan Algeria Bahrain Bangladesh Benin Bhutan Burkina Faso Cambodia Chad China Cyprus Djibouti Egypt Eritrea Ethiopia Gambia Gibraltar Greece Guinea Guinea-Bissau India Iran Iraq Israel Japan Jordan Korea, North Korea, South Kuwait Laos Lebanon Libya Macau Mali Malta Mauritania Morocco Myanmar (Burma) Nepal Niger Oman Pakistan Philippines Portugal Qatar Saudi Arabia Senegal Sudan Syria Taiwan Tajikistan Thailand Tunisia Turkey Turkmenistan United Arab Emirates Vietnam Western Sahara Yemen

You know cos of running, God has graciously allowed me to meet people from the countries in blue. And allowed me to go to the countries in red. No Philippines was a mission trip, but I went to Jordan and Thailand cos of running. Cos of running, i can travel and see different types of people. One of the most memorable trips was that of to Jordan. Cos its very near the middle east. I was very excited about the trip to Jordan. We stopped over at Dubai and took a flight to Amman Jordan. Hmm. the cute thing is that the buildings i saw were usually of the same colour - light brown of the colour of sand. it was seldolm that we saw painted buildings. and bcos our hotel was right beside a mosque, u can imagine. At i think 4 am plus in the morn, everyday, we would be awakened by the prayer call played through loud speakers at the side of the building. and the most most encouraging thing i found was the lissaon officers that were attached to our contingent. University students, English speaking, both girls were friends. But one was a Muslim, the other a Christian. I found it greatly encouraging that even in Jordan, there were Christians! Look at the bigger picture! God is sure in the work of saving souls... (: but it was sad to see few people out on the streets, mostly men cos the women had to stay home and friday afternoon was like a holiday. Shops would close, traffic would cease and there would be an endless line of vechicles parked outside the mosque for friday prayers. Even our bus driver parked the bus outside the mosque, left us in the bus and went in to pray. Its like, for a moment, time stands still at friday noon. that's about all i have to say about Jordan, missions and running...

oh wait, one more thing, just to mention before i call it a night. On the car on the way back from Claud's place home, my mum was talking to me about what she had just heard from a friend who came back for a hol from working overseas. Today, tonight is a significant day. Cos its the first time im hearing abit more about this country. and it just excites my heart. Laos. oh, Laos. hearing about this near yet far country warms my heart. why? cos i like challenges, i wanna be a trail blazer. Laos is a communist country. It is a dark country, very dark. there is no light. Only 3 churches in the whole of Laos. imagine - 3. and 2 are for the expraites, only 1, 1 for the locals. Majority of the people are buddist. speak Laos language and french. No or not much mission work i must suppose, only community work done there. Oh, how the people of Laos need to hear of the good news. How they need light to shine in the darkness that there're living in.

Will u pray with me for the people of Laos? Let's pray, shall we? (:

oh, and if you have yet to discover your Spiritual gift, pray and ask God. :) He will answer, He will show you, so ask Him. :D

2009-04-16T22:36:00.002+08:00

i've got a new found Hero of the Faith - Hudson Talyor! (:

as I read more and more of his biography (im two thirds through), i can only simply say wow! what a man of God! what faith in God he had. There's just so much i can say about his life. but one thing that has stuck me hard for now is his deisre to always and only 'to move man through God by prayer alone'. Oh, his love and hunger to be ever nearer still nearer to God. His faith in a God that answers prayer, His hunger for the word.

if only i can follow him just as he followed Christ!

Lord, may my love for You ever grow stronger and stronger. Teach me the secret of unceasing prayer. Draw me back to Thyself.

2009-04-11T20:08:00.003+08:00

wow! This has been an amazing amazing past few days.
God has simply been so good! (:

People often have talked about the power of prayer and all, and just a few days back, I examined my life and realised that I did not truly believe in the power of prayer. Hence, I prayed and asked God to make the power of prayer real in my life, a personal knowledge, an experiencial knowledge that there really is power in prayer.

God has answered my prayer today.
Today, I saw the power of prayer. When I prayed and asked God to show me the power of prayer, I asked for the salvation of 4 souls- my god bro, Trevor, Eugene and Divya. God has answered 1/4 of this prayer thus far and I trust that this prayer will be answered completely real soon.

On thursday night, the day before Good friday, I was messaging my god-bro, in the midst, i asked him if he knew the meaning of Good friday. He didn't, so from there, I went on to explain the meaning of good friday and Easter Sunday. I shared the gospel to him through the reply. Our conversation on the things of God continued on to friday and even up till this morn. I saw that he understood the whole gospel, he said he did. So this morn he asked me what i meant when i told him 'i hope u'd think about what i've shared with you'. My reply was 'Do you believe that Jesus can and wants to save you from your sin?'.
His reply to my surprise was 'ya.' (O me of little faith!)
From this reply, I knew he was ripe, very very ripe for the salvation. All this was taking place as we were in our usual Uth Ministry prayer meeting on Sat morn and all the while, I was praying, pleading, begging God to save him. I then asked him if He would like to believe and trust in Jesus to save him from his sins now. His reply was maybe...then? So i told him the sinners prayer and added that the prayer does not save, it's the believe from the heart that saves. Upon telling him the sinners prayer, I kept kept praying in my heart that today will be the day of his salvation. I have never pleaded and begged God for a soul then today. At this point in the meeting, Ian was sharing about the groups in the ministry and about the various ministries and outreaches. But I simply couldn't concentrate on what Ian was saying. My soul was crying out to God for the salvation of a dear soul. Then the picture of how Daniel's reply from God was delayed bcos there was a battle going on in the Heavenlies. I imagined the same too for my god-bro. That there was an ongoing battle for his soul. I recalled to mind too, the account of the Africian Missionary and how 26 men prayed for him and were present with him in spirit that faithful night the African men wanted to kill him. God at this moment, was impressing upon my heart that I needed to pray for his salvaition. Yes, but wasn't I already praying? Wasn't I already pleading? No. God was saying, pray with your brothers and sisters in Christ present. There is power in prayer! There is power in the prayer of believers together. There were about 15 plus other people in the sancturay in that moment all obviblous to the internal struggle that went on within. Obviblous to the battle in the Heavenlies for the soul of my god-bro. Someone had to tell them, something had to be done! and something had to be done that very instant! I was hesistant bcos I didn't want to be rude to interput Ian as he was sharing. I waited and waited. Then Pastor Paul came in to ask Dawn to move her car and I jumped at this opportunity to request prayer for him as a body of believers. Ian graciously agreeed and asked me to pray. As I prayed, begged and pleaded, there was a moment in the prayer that I was quite certain that God had heard my prayer. He had answered our prayer. I ended the prayer and Ian carried on praying for him as well. I asked him if he had made the decision to believe in his heart in Jesus to save him from his sin and he said Yes! I inquired about what time he did so and it was about the time all of us in the sanctuary were praying for his salvtion! (: (: God is so so so amazing! Praise You GOD!

My heart overflows with praise to the Lord...

you know now, Im still trying to take it all in. That my god-bro is saved. that God can save muslims. Yes He can. I just look at my little faith with great shame. Even after God has showed me the power of prayer, I still doubt Him, I still doubt if it really is true. Oh mel of little faith! How the heart is so deceitful, so harderned. I wonder what must God do then I'll really believe. He already did such a great thing, but my heart is still so hard.

Oh, Lord, help. Help thou mine unbelief. Help me to have faith in Thee, because without faith, it is impossible to please You. I'm sorry and ashamed dear Lord at my unbelief and hardened heart. Please take this stony heart and replace it with a tender heart. All that I am is Yours. I love You.

At this time, I'd like to request prayer for my god-bro. Please pray that the proper follow-up may be done with him, that He will be the first in his community to come and know the Lord. That when persecution arises, he will stand strong in the Lord. Thanks for ur prayers!

*If you want to know his name, so that you may pray for him more intelligently, you can come and ask me. Cos this is the internet and things are open for anyone and everyone to view, i wanna be a little careful here.

2009-04-09T18:45:00.004+08:00

Hello! :)

I'm at Claudia's place now using her family com.
We just went running around her place and the breeze was really really nice.
Thank God for wind. :D
We're gonna have dinner by the poolside ltr. Cool eh? haha.
Just thank God for A.Jill and her family's hospitability toward me.

Just now on the train to Claud's place was reading the biography of Hudson Talyor by his parents.
Stirring.
The title of the book is"The Spiritual Secret of Hudson Taylor", i just finished the 1st chapter onto the second now.

Hudson Talyor was born in a Christian Family. Amazing how he never thought he would get saved yet one fine day, he picked up a tract and decided that he would just read it for fun and ignore the salvation part. Come on, he had heard the Gospel i'm sure a hundred times alrdy. However, God ways are higher than our ways. Amazing how the phrase "The finished work of Christ" could stirr Hudson Taylor to salvation. Sorry, may I put it, it was the working of the Spirit in this 17 year old's heart that led him to salvation. On top of that, his loved ones had been praying for him. Praying hard they were. His 13 year old sister prayed for his salvation daily for one whole month before he came to know the Lord...

Stay tuned for more about the life of Hudson Talyor as I share more about his life in the posts to come...

2009-04-07T14:33:00.003+08:00

Read something last night on a.Lisa's blog that utterly blew my mind about prayer.
Hope this blesses your heart as much as it has blessed mine.
Here goes:

"Thinking About the Importance of Prayer...

Mike came across this recent account of a missionary in Africa that really spoke powerfully to both of us:

A missionary was serving as a medic in Africa. Periodically he would travel by bicycle through the jungle to a near by town for supplies. It was two-day trip, so he would camp in the jungle overnight. He had always made the trip without incident, but one day when he arrived in the city he saw two men fighting. One was seriously hurt, so he treated the man, shared Christ with him and went on his way.

The next time the missionary travelled to the city, the man he had treated approached him. “I know you carry money and medicine,” the man said to the missionary. “Some friends and I followed you into the jungle alone. We waited for you to go to sleep, planning to kill you and take your money and drugs. As we started to move into the camp site we saw twenty six armed guards surrounding you. There were only six of us, so we knew we could not possibly get near and we left.”

When he heard this, the missionary laughed. “That is impossible. I assure you, I was alone in the campsite.” But the young man pressed the point. “No sir. I was not the only one who saw the guards. My friends saw them too, and we all counted them.”

Several months later, the missionary attended his home church in Michigan and told his experience. A man in the congregation interrupted his presentation by jumping to his feet and saying something that left everyone in the church stunned. With a firm voice he said, “We were with you in Spirit!” The missionary looked perplexed.

The man continued, “On that night in Africa it was morning here. I stopped by the church to get some materials for a ministry trip. But as I was putting my bags in the trunk, I felt the Lord leading me to pray for you. It was an extremely strong urge, so I got on the phone and gathered some other men to come to the church and pray for you.” Then the man turned to the rest of the congregation and said, “Will all those men who prayed with me that day stand upright now?”

And one by one they stood up-all twenty-six of them."

from "http://he-still-answers.blogspot.com/"

Wow! (: this is really the POWER of PRAYER in reality! This is the power that transcends countries and taps into the spiritual realm. If only we all prayed believing in the power of prayer, I wonder what would happen.

Majority of people would read the missonary account above and say "Ah, i was a nice story. It did make me feel all warm on the inside." and go about their lives just the same.

Few would read this, purpose in their heart, that if THIS IS the power of prayer, then we must be praying! We must be praying at all times about all things!

Which will you be, dear friend, the first or the latter? you decide.

Lord, help us to believe in the Power and Importance of prayer and live it.

2009-03-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

At The Cross

Oh Lord You've searched me
You know my way
Even when I fail You
I know You love me

Your holy presence
Surrounding me
In every season
I know You love me
I know You love me

At the cross I bow my knee
Where Your blood was she'd for me
There's no greater love than this
You have overcome the grave
Your glory fills the highest place
What can separate me now

You go before me
You shield my way
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me

You tore the veil
You made a way
When You said that it is done

And when the earth fades
Falls from my eyes
And You stand before me
I know You love me
I know You love me

This song really blessed my heart tonight at Uth Worship. Even when we sang this song, I paused and listen to everyone singing with one voice. One word- dynamic. It was so beautiful, and I imagined God smiling down at us.

Even when I fail You
I know You love me
Your hand upholds me
I know You love me
What can separate me now? Nothing!

2009-03-24T22:33:00.004+08:00

hope to make this a quick one. In this hectic period, I thank God for teaching me a lesson. With many things around me, calling out for my attention - Homeschooling schedule to be settled, Bible School Homework to be done, Easter Outreach Powerpoint, Practice the Violin for CCWO this Sun, Admin work for CM, Vibe and Uth Ministry...the list goes on. Admist all this, God has reminded me of that one needful thing.

38 Now it came to pass, as they went, that he entered into a certain village: and a certain woman named Martha received him into her house.
39 And she had a sister called Mary, which also sat at Jesus' feet, and heard his word.
40 But Martha was cumbered about much serving, and came to him, and said, Lord, dost thou not care that my sister hath left me to serve alone? bid her therefore that she help me.
41 And Jesus answered and said unto her, Martha, Martha, thou art careful and troubled about many things:
42 But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her.

God has been reminding me, Mel. Stop, wait. Have you remembered your one needful thing? Have you spent time with Me today? I was waiting for you, I still am. Come and sit and my feet. Cast your burdern upon Me, because I care for you. With tears streaming down my face, I say, Yes, Lord. I'll come. I'm coming. I'll come everyday to sit and Your feet. To do that one needful thing and to hear what You have for me. Two weeks have past with me forgotting the one needful thing. This week, by God's grace, I want to remember that one needful thing-and put it into practice!

Another verse God has placed in my heart is Philippians 4:6-7:

Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

Oh, how I so need this verse. To be careful for nothing, to worry about nothing, but commit it all to God.

Dear Friend, how about you? Have you remebered that one needful thing? Have you been sitting at the feet of our Saviour? Have you been commiting everything to God with prayer?

I hope you have. (: if not, why not start this very moment?

2009-03-23T23:18:00.004+08:00

wow. realised it sure has been sometime since i've posted.
let me see, where should i start. School! Today was my 1st day of homeschooling. I really enjoyed it and I starting to love Mr MrBride already. He's such a bubbly teacher! I'm using the A Beka Programme and I join a class in the States by DVDs. I take 8 subjects - English, History, Maths, New Testament, Life Mangement, Bio, Chem & Physical Ed. (: cool ya? haha. I'm in 11th Grade, equivelent to JC1 here in S'pore. okayy, enough of school for now.

Share something interesting that happened in my heart on Sunday. God rekindled my burdern to welcome newcomers in church! We used to have a welcome ministry in the Uth ministry if some of you remember and we were basically at the foyer before and after service, looking out for Uths who new to GLCC. I enjoyed those times getting to know new people, asking them their name, school, age..etc. I miss those times. and now, I seem to think that since I'm serving in the Sec 1 and 2, I can't quite do welcome. Cos I have to spend time with them, and I want to spend time with them(Claud, Elizabell, Glenda, Jessica, Gwyn and the rest of the gals). But then again, God reminds me, No one is indispensible! He doesn't need me! It's really a privilege to be serving Him! It is a struggle, should i welcome newcomers or spend time with the younger ones. I long to do both. Maybe I can, i hope. ahaha. I really don't know. God, please show me Your mind and Your will for this. Well, just the past Sunday, which is yesterday, I saw a new youth with her parents jsut before i was about to enter the audi for service. Went up and striked a conversation with her all the way to our seats in the audi. Thank God for Pat who came along too to welcome Sheena. She's Sec 4 this year, and i've invited her to this fri's Uth Worship and Vibe on Sat. You know, cos I like to sit at the front row so I wouldn't get distracted by people walking in, but this Sun, we sat at the back as Sheena's dad chose the spot to sit. Well, sitting at the back made me even more burderned. Bcos from the back, I could see Amanda Ong and Daniel sitting with their parents, Densie with her mum, Sarah Koh and Wesly sitting with their parents, Emily with her family...who knows? the list just goes on, for Uths who come on Sunday and are not connected to the Uth Ministry. I feel we have failed if we do not go to reach out to them. I mean, we can't expect them to come automatically into the Uth Ministry. There has to be some form of relationship/bond established. Think about Benjamin and Tommy, Jasmine, Jerimah and Annabel... There are here, right at our doorstep, and what are we doing to make them feel welcomed or a part of us? Mel, wake up! Lord, help us. Welcoming them issn't a hard thing. All it takes is a smile, a handshake, an introduction...Cummon, how hard is it to smile? Effortless! (: (: (: (: Well, if you're from the Uth Ministry and u're reading this, i'd like to offer you a challenge. The youth are already there, what is takes is a willing heart, ready feet, a wide smile on your face to walk up to them and say, "Hi I'm so-and-so, nice to meet you! You are?" (: and remember, give them a WIDE Smile, of course, not soo scary until they will get scared off lah, but a nice smile will do. It doesn't need to be on Sunday's only, maybe even Friday Uth Worship, if there are newcomers, let us take the initiative to walk up to them and welcome them, introduce ourselves. God has impressed unpon my heart on this matter, I hope He has too, on yours.

Here is a list of Youth who come on Service but are not really connected with the Uth Minisrty:
Amanda Ong and Daniel are brothers and sisters. They come for 1st serivce usually, i think. But their family doesn't stay back after that.
Sarah Koh and Wesly are brothers and sisters too. Similarly, their family leaves straight after 1st service! Gotta catch them fast!
Emily also known as Wen Qi to some of us, has 3 older sisters. She may be in the canteen after 2nd service sometimes.
Jeremiah and his brother(I forgot his name) go for 2nd service together with their family. I think they came for Uth Worship once or twice.
Annabel is Abel's sister. She's the same age as me.
Benjamin and Jasmine are brothers and sisters. They attend the Chinese Service with their mum and have their lunch at the corner near the drinks station.

That's about all I know, but i'm sure there are still some more Uth out there! (:
Will you join me in going out there and reaching out to them for the glory of God? :D

2009-03-11T21:10:00.001+08:00

Don't Forget

Don't forget all He's done,
Don't forget victory's won.
Don't forget in the race He gave strength for the run.
Don't forget Jesus' care,
Don't forget answered prayer.
Don't forget, Don't forget, you saw His hand everywhere.

Remember your Lord God Jehovah,
Remember how much you were changed by His Word.
Forget not the days, He taught you to praise
though hard seemed the way of the Lord.
Remember how far that He took you,
when He gave you a hunger to abide.
Oh don't turn Him away,
He bids you to stay,
stay where you belong at His side.

How the time has gone by,
and the memories have died.
I've forgotten the joy when in Him I abide.
How I long for that day,
when His strength was my stay.
Lord forgive, Lord renew, Lord revive me today.

This song never fails to stir up nostalgic emotions within me. However, it just dawned on me recently. You know the phrase "Don't let the past cripple you"? I never thought it would apply to me. Bcos I viewed it for people who had an unpleasant past, not for people who had a pleasant past. But seeing it in a different light, how much now I need to beware not to let the past cripple me!
I have very fond memories of the past, in a spiritual sense, maybe also in a sense of my childhood-but we shall not go there for now. God has been very merciful to put in me a hunger for the things pertaining to Him at a young age. Somewhere between 10-12, God allowed me to see what I really should be living for in life. I realised that getting a job, earning big bucks, driving a fancy car and staying in a big house is not what i really want to do later in life. Bcos to me, it doesn't count much for eternity. If we all lived in the light of eternity, I wonder how differently we would be living our lives now. I decided then, that I want to give back the one life to God that He has given me to count for eternity. Not saying that getting a job in the secular world like becoming a doctor or lawyer is not right. We need good Christian doctors and lawyers to evangelise their circle of friends. All of us have different mission fields. Maybe I would call it convictions? I'm convicted that I want to use all my energy, strength and life to serve God, to advance His Kingdom, to be in the King's business. All because He is my Lord and I love Him. (:

okayy, sorry i digressed abit, back to where i was about fond memories. Just monday, was talking with Jo En about how the gang used to wear dresses and sports shoes to Sunday School, that was coolness then alright! haha. How we would love to be on duty for coffee ministry cos we could be excused from Sunday School early! ahaha. And I remember how Jaq would bring cut fruits for us to eat after class, Aunty Alice would bring all of us to macs for Sunday School. ahaha. Jo Lin, Jo En, Charm, Bao, if ever you read this, you'll know what I'm talking about man. haha. Well, I remeber Pastor Rob Campbell and team coming from the States for one of the Youth Camp's that we had long ago. I remeber David and Michelle from the team who were really nice to me. (: wonder how there're doing. I remember too at another Youth Camp, Evangelist Morris Gliser. That would be one camp I wouldn't forget. I was in Pulau Sudong if I'm right. I remeber the Life in the Spirit Course with Ian and Anne, the bonds forged from then on. Sweet memories. I remember the movie night and how I wished I was older so more of my friends could come, because it was at night and many of my friends parents wouldn't let em out at night. ahaha. that's funny, cos now when i'm older, I somehow don't have the courage and thick skin-ness to go and ask my whole class and all my friends in school Looking back, that definatly was the Lord. No, not melody. mel wouldn't go round her whole school asking people to come to her church for a movie night. nope, that is so not mel.

You see, there is a danger here, which i think i have been gulity off. and that is to harp on the past, to look back at how everything was so nice in the past, limiting God to do great and mighty things NOW. God wants to work, but bcos I keep looking back, it's hard for me to see God work NOW, it's hard for me to realise that God wants to work. He wants to do even greater things than what He did in time past, if only i'd look forward with a confidence in Him!

Dear God, please help me not to let the past cripple me. Thank You for the past. I want to believe that You want to do even greater things now. Please let me not limit Your work by my looking back. I love You.

2009-03-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

Hmm, i've been wanting to post since fri night but havent exactly found the time till now.

Firstly, I really want to thank God for the Friday Night bbq the sec1 and 2 group could have at Luzerne's place. Thank God for all who have prayed! (: We really had an awesome time, a wonderful kick off! Praise God! Well you know, as the saying goes, a picture speaks a thousand words, so here goes!

All smiles for the Camera! "Justin, where did you disappear to?"

All chio bu's pls smile! Ahaha. >.<

Wah, I think Luzerne's face is just hilarious! Now i know what can cheer me up when i'm sad. :D

How long did it take to get this shot? About 3 more shots before this? haha. "Wait, wait, I blink...take again" lol. Rem, close your eyes first. 1, 2, 3 then open. :)

Joshua, thanks for going round to serve the food. Appreciate it.

Thank God for Hanniel, Fei and Jon who did the bbq-ing for us! (: thanks loads ya, guys!

Gabriel! How many times must you split ur pants? 2nd time liao. haha. but thanks ah, it gave us all a good laugh!

Sisters in Christ forever!

Happy Birthay to all the (Ma)rch babies! haha. (look at the choco cake) only Claud and Gwyn know who's the culprit. Woops. *points finger at myself* paiseh ah.

*Drumroll*....Presenting: THE SEC 1 & 2 GROUP! Ta da! (Don't worry, we'll find a nicer and shorter name soon! ahaha.)

If the smiles couldn't convey to you just how much fun we had that day, then i suggest (if u're Sec 1 or 2) you join us this friday at Luzerne's place to experience it for yourself! (: haha. come ya? you wouldn't reget it. promise.

2009-03-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

Learnt quite a few lessons today, but shall just share one main one.
I learnt this in the morning in Bible School when P. Chee Keen was teaching O.T Studies from the Book of 1 Samuel. This is about the call of the prophet Samuel.
He was not older than 11 or 12 when God called him.
What does that teach us?
Age is not a barrier to God calling me.
What encouragement! How that warms my heart!
This shows us too, that children can develop an understanding of the things of God from a young age.
I can testify to that. When I was about 10, God started to do a deep work in my heart.
I started to develop a love and hunger for the things of God. It was not me. It was God doing His work in my life. Why me? I don't know, but all I can say is Praise God! It is His grace and mercy. His grace and mercy.

Now let us go about our lives believing that age is not a barrier to God calling us. Be it at 10 or at 60, God can still call you. And when He calls, how will you respond?

And to all you young ones out there:

Let no one despise your youth, but be an example to the believers in word, in
conduct, in love, in spirit, in faith, in purity.

Breakthrough! (:

2009-03-04T19:22:00.000+08:00

A Struggle within,
A cry of help,
Silence...
Then comes the breakthrough! (:

Thank You, Lord!

I wansn't too sure what was going on, but these 3 readings sure has cleared the clouds away.

If it was an attack from the evil one then,
1. Ephesians 6:10-18

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord, and in the power of his might.
11 Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.
12 For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places].
13 Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.
14 Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness;
15 And your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace;
16 Above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked.
17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God: 18 Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication for all saints;

These verses, though they seem lengthy, are sure worth meditating on. They have thought me much on Spiritual Warefare:
1. This battle is fought in the spiritual realm, not physical realm, therefore I have to Put On the armour of God. Notice that Putting on, is an act of the will, a choice. There are many action words in these 9 vereses; "put on", "take unto you" & "taking".
2. The Position in which I must take on in battle is that of standing. Being on the alert, being aware that everyday, I am on battle ground, not a playground!
3. Besides putting on the armour of God, I have to communicate with my Commander in this battle through - Prayer; Praying Always. I am to be constantly talking to my Commander, finding out the situation of the battlefield.

Also, really encouraging is this - that the Shield of Faith is able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. All means all! There is not one dart that this Shield is not able to quench! My responsibility, holding up this Shield of Faith. (:

If it was a trial from God then,
2. Proverbs 3:11-12

11 My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction:
12 For whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son [in whom] he delighteth.

Oh let me not dispise the chastening of the Lord, for He does it out of love, to change me to be more like Him.

If it was guilt then.
3. A portion from the book "The Man God uses" by Oswald J. Smith

Fact, Faith, Feeling.

Now don't let Satan cheat you out of the blessing by making you wait for some supernatural manifestation or feeling. You will know the joy and comfort of the Holy Spirit as you go out believing, testifying, acting on your faith. God's order for Santification is the same as for Salvation. First, "fact"; second, "faith"; third, "feeling". Now Satan always reverses the Divine order, and tells you to look for feeling. But how can you feel before you believe and how can you believe until you know something to believe?
Here are some facts: "If we confess out sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9). The condition is that you confess. Have you met the condition? Then, why make God a liar? "If we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ, His Son, cleanseth us from all sin." "But," you say, "I don't feel cleansed." No, and you never will until you first of all believe God's Word and act on your faith.

Enough said.
Be it 1, 2 or 3;
Time to take action, friends! (:

2009-02-07T16:28:00.001+08:00

my God is AWESOME!

So Awesome that I have decided to start a blog to testify of His grace and goodness in my life and in the lives of others around me. I hope that this blog will be a tremendous encouragement to you. :)