God is so good,
God is so good,
God is so good,
He's so good to me.

(: God is so so so good!
Today has been an awesome day. I know i should be slping soon, tmr is the Lord's Day.
This morn was amazing, i jumped out of bed at 7.40am. that is so unlike me! ahaha! expecially since i slept at 2 plus last night. but i thank God i woke up, so that i could start the day with Him. Sitting at His feet and listening to Him. It was a great time I had with God. He thought me 7 lessons from Matthew 12-14. but one thing that really stood out was Matthew 13:58. God just rebuked me. rebuked me at my unbelief. O thou of little faith, wherefore dids't thou doubt?

Matthew 13:58 reads ' And he did not many mighty works there because of their unbelif'.
the context here is A prophet is without honour in His own country. Jesus had went back to His own country, very willing and ready to do mighty works there. but he could not. it's not that He didn't want to. He simply could not. why? cos of the people's unbelief. I see myself in this situation so much. Unbelief. How much God wants to do mighty works in my life, my family, the sec 1 & 2 group, the Uth Ministry, GLCC, this nation-but He can't, cos of my unbelief. cos of our unbelief. at times i stop to wonder and think, do i really know whom I'm coming before in prayer. do i really know what im saying, what im praying? i dun think i do. Cos If I would really see God as He really is and to believe Him to be all He said He is, wow! my life would be alot different. my approach towards prayer, everything would be differnet. Oh may we learn to see God as He is and live accordingly.

that just gripped me. but i pray that it would not just be something that hits me for a day. may i make changes in my life to apply what i've learned.

After spending time with God, i went down to have breakfast. on the way up i saw Denise sitting at the void deck below my block waiting for English tuition to start. glad that i could get a chance to catch up with her a little. went home and had to run some errands for my mum that's why i was late for morn prayer. raaahhhh. i don't like to be late! had a good time of morn prayer. went down with Jia Wen for a time of sharing and prayer. haha! we had such a good time talking that time seemed to fly by so so fast! like more than one hour but it didn't seem that long. but i was really encouraged by the conversation with Jia Wen. i was asking about her feedback on the sec 1 & 2 group. She said that she preferred to come for Uth Worship then the activity, so i was quite interested to know why. She said that she likes Uth Worship, when i asked her why, she said she likes to hear what Ian shares. Wow! i was blown away. then she continued and said that its cos she wants to grow deeper. (: i was like PRAISE GOD! (in my heart) i just thank God for little encouragements like these. that young as they may be, sec 1, sec 2, they have the desire and hunger for the things of God. to grow deeper in Him! oh may i point these young ones to Christ, to the one who loves them so much more than i ever can, to the one who laid down His life for them!

in our sharing, we also talked about a gal whom i've met before, she came to Uth Worship once. well, the sharing just impressed upon my heart, the need and hunger for LOVE in the youth of today. actually, hasn't it always been the case? don't we all one to know that we are loved? that we are secure and that someone cares for us? this is especially strong amongst youths and if they aren't pointed to the true LOVE, then they will result to all sorts of means. gangs. smoking. steady relationships. whatever. as long as they know someone loves them and will be there for them. so something to sooth that pain, that emptinesss, that longing. well, all these may fill but for a moment. Only GOD can fill the longing soul. may we be pointing them to Him!

okay, its late. just one more thing. Just thank God too for being able to walk to the bus stop with Andrew Yip. Thanks Andrew for bring so open. thanks for the sharing.
well, many times i expect, we expect people around us to be just like us. what we must see is that every one is created unique. Each of us are special in God's sight. All of us are made different and some people just need more time to open up. More time before they may share their hearts with you, but meanwhile, patience is the key.

Tomorrow's gonna be a long day, I thank God for sustaining me through today with strength though i only had about 5 hours sleep. well, God please grant me strength to go through tomorrow too. Good night everyone! :D